Fabulous.

Well, today I embarked on a fabulous new journey. I felt something I have not felt in a long time. The feeling was so surreal that it brought me to tears. Today, I went to church. My faith in the last few years has diminished and as horrific and embarrassed that I am...it became non-existent. Interestingly enough, I felt whole, full filled, at peace at the end. I did not feel intruded, or overwhelmed by religion; however I felt encouragingly overwhelmed with serenity and peace.

The message dealt with forgiveness. Forgiveness is something I find myself constantly struggling with. In the past few months, my heart has turned somewhat cold. I find myself giving people chance after chance after chance only to be let down, to be disappointed, and bitter. I then realize that this constant worry, bitterness builds up. After today I have decided to free myself of these burdens. As the pastor danced around, laughing, and singing I realized that this is what I was. This is who I used to be. I have freed myself of these disappointments, I have freed myself of the bitterness, and I have freed myself od this constant worry.

I will not allow the sadness of others to bring me down. I am far too happy, lucky, and blessed to feel this constant sort of worry. I have an amazing and loving husband who treats me like a queen. I live in a beautiful home, a I am blessed witj great job, and a good head on my shoulders. I am excited for the future, I am passionate about my marriage, and I am ecstatic about my new church home!

Proverb 17:22
"A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."